Can you believe it

Full circle. Tonight I sit in Strandbad, typing emails and posting blogs, because Alice screwed up our internet. The Hamburger just left, I guess his days of stalking me are over, or in my Ramones t-shirt and unwashed hair, I looked too local to be interesting. Any way, I was thankful to have gone unnoticed. (that's him to the right, sorry I had one shot and I had to use no flash, and as my friend Markus likes to tell me - No flash and you breath - BAD photo...

Mid blog post John Snider IM'ed me and I just thought, I am so incredibly thankful for the sweet threads of consistency in this constantly changing life.

It's been craziness here and I can't say that I am keeping up well, but I am trying and making keeping up my blog and my blip a priority have actually given me something to look forward to after a long day of packing. I can't believe in a few short days I will be living alone. I have craved it for two long years and suddenly I wonder how I will do. I am starting to kind of picture myself as an old woman with piles of stuff in her flat with like 5 cats... I actually hate cats and love men, so I can't really see it happening, but that doesn't stop the irrational fear.

In a matter of amusement, I took David on a "date" with me the other night... Well, let me say it this way. David and I had plans with CoCo for her last night here and one of the guys I have been "getting to know" (so awkward - SO awkard, but I could HARDLY call it dating, partially because we are both so busy) asked me if I wanted to have dinner. It was the fourth time in a span of two weeks that I had plans when he called, and I was in the car with David so I asked what he thought about including the guy in dinner. He knows and really likes the guy and was thankful for the additional testosterone, so the four of us had dinner. Now, I barely know this guy - I have no idea if he is really interested or if I am interested, but I did not think it was a good sign when we were walking back to his flat to meet David and CoCo and he said, "I think you guys are missing it, you are really fantastic together." Note to self: DO NOT BRING BEST FRIEND TO DINNER WITH A GUY YOU MIGHT LIKE TO DATE.

I know you are all laughing. We laughed to, what else can we do?

So there you go. That's my life. I am packing and packig and cleaning and packing and trying to get stuff together to send with the team that's leaving for Uganda on Saturday and also trying not to be totally and completely despressed that I am not going.

Don't worry guys, I really am going to try to be better about this. Lots of meaningless stories and mindless chatter from me from now on. I know you have all missed it sooooo much.

Love you all, peace out.